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I am having such a hard time with the no smoking thing this week. I am staying strong. So far anyways. It's been such a stressful week it's all Ive thought about the last couple days. So as a detourent I have been trying to keep myself somewhat busy. I cooked breakfast yesterday morning, cleaned up, made chili put that in the crockpot, cleaned up. Then cleaned the house, did most of the laundry, braved Walmart & Costco in the middle of the afternoon, and still going nuts. It's been 2 1/2 months and I'm fighting through it, because once I cheat, there's no going back.

We have been mulling around the idea of going to the in laws house for a visit. I was trying to escape here for thanksgiving, but that's not going to happen because we decided to save the money and go in about 3 weeks, just before Xmas. They have a Xmas party and the whole neighborhood decorates so I think it would be fun. At least just to get away for a few days. I wish we could do both, but that's not going to happen. Maybe it's just this time I've year, maybe I just hate thanksgiving and think its a pointless holiday, other then the fantastic shopping on Friday. It's just to much shit has happened this time of year and it makes me down. I start feeling better closer to Xmas and am happy to hang with the family then, just not right now.

So, a couple weeks ago we gave dipshit money for a car ( happy birthday, merry Xmas, happy graduation). You would think this would have gotten him off our asses, however now the car is broken. And not just broken, it fucked up like we have to take it in and have it looked at to see how extensive the engine damage is. Gee how much is this going to cost us, cause shithead still isn't working enough and now is car less. I wonder how long that's going to last before he's whining about needing a car. Either way it going to end up costing me money. I liked it when they were fighting, he didn't come around for a couple months and it was nice.

OK

Well thank god it happened quickly yesterday and not today.  I came home early yesterday and so did the hubby so we could tell the kids.  I let the girl go with her dad and we broke the news to the boy.  He reacted like I thought he would.  Really didn't have much to say, and was a bit uncomfortable with the situation.  And that's OK.  How else should an 8 year old act.  The girl came home, and I made sure the boy was in the shower so we wouldn't be interrupted.  I tell you, she reacted better then I thought she would.  The hubby explained things to her, she cried for about 45 minutes, then we just sat together and watched TV for a while.  We all went to bed and things were fine with the kids this morning.  I on the other hand am fine, but I just couldn't get motivated to get my ass out of bed and dressed.  So I took a day to myself to watch movies in bed and be a bum.  Plus I have had this freaking headache for 2 days now, which I'm sure is caused by stress.  It feels like someone is sitting on my head.  The funeral is on Tuesday, why Tuesday, I have no idea, but it saves me from having to make the decision of taking the kids or not.  They will be in school so that takes care of that.  Well Time to go, but thought I would just give a quick update.

Time.

This has been quite a rough week so far. My grandpa is dying. I am not good with death. I don't know if it's because I haven't had to deal with it much, or if it's just my personal preference. I got away with avoiding my other grandparents death because I was pregnant and everybody left me alone, didn't pressure me about going to the funeral and I was fine with that. I don't need "closure" like some people do. I would prefer to remember them the way they were and not in a box. My dad was a different circumstance. He was young, and went quick. It was more shocking then anything. I still felt no need to go to his funeral, however I had to. So I sucked it up and went. Now that's the last memory I have and it really sucks. This morning we all went to the hospital and the doctor said there was nothing they could do. So thank god my grandma agreed to take him off all his meds and just keep him comfortable. Now we are just waiting. I am hoping it's fast. I'm hoping it's today rather then tomorrow because the step kids birthday is tomorrow and my dad already died on the othe step kids birthday so I am praying for it not to be tomorrow. I'm not sure how to break the news to my daughter. She is very close to my grandparents, and I'm also not sure if I should bring her to the funeral? I don't want to put all that on an 11 year old. Well sorry for the depressing post but I needed to talk it out. Thanks for listing to my internal struggles.

Almost Friday!

You know what cracks me up? It's when I look at that feedjit thing and all "those people" that are googling porn and come across my post entitled "fuck me". Which really I typed because I was pissed off one day. Poor sick bastards looking for boobies, but ending up on my blog. It makes me laugh. So, I have been reading, ok wait, torturing myself with the new Nicholas sparks book. Would it be to much to ask for a happy ending once and a while. Quit killing people off. And if you read his books, you know what I'm talking about. I got a nice call from a friend I haven't heard from in a while. All seems to be good with them and that makes me happy, because they deserve to be happy!

Trick or treating was a blur. We went through four bags of candy in an hour. My mom had to run out and buy us more. The overalls I ordered showed up Monday at 4:00 on my porch so the farmer was complete.

Parent teacher conferences were this week. The boy, doing great. The girl, it will be a fucking miracle if she graduates high school.

Starting off Well

Since today is only Tuesday, I thought I'd throw you all off from my normal Friday Posts.  This weekend we went to apple hill.  Here are some pictures from that day.

We will start with the beautiful fall colors.

A purple rose, my favorite, at the first farm we went to.

We visited the pumpkin patch.  This is my yearly pic of the boy with the pumpkins.  And yes that is actually the real color of the pumpkins.

We went apple picking and got some yummy apples!

Fresh apple right off the tree!

We had a great time and I got the best apple crisp ala mode at one of the farms.  We even tasted a variety of apple wines, which were gross by the way.  The hubby worked all weekend (poor him, yay me) I had some much needed free time on Sunday.  I actually managed to get through a few of the Grey's Anatomy's I had recorded forever ago.

The weather is turning grey and cold, however we are suppose to be back to the low 70's by the weekend.  That is totally unusual for this time of year.  Hell I have been out trick or treating in the snow.  I'm glad to have this little reprieve.  Speaking of Halloween.  My son wants to be a farmer this year.  OK, seems pretty simple.  NOT!  We have been on the hunt for overalls for the last 3 days.  You think they would still make them for little boys or I'm willing to even buy a girls pair, but NO, nothing unless your an infant.  So I took my chances and ordered some from Amazon for $30.00 in hopes that they will be here before Monday.  Fingers crossed.  I even checked every thrift store in town, and had the hubby running all over Reno looking for them.  I called the 5 kid stores at the mall, and nothing.  I hope they arrive on time or he's going to be a half assed farmer.  The Spirit store doesn't even carry anything, what the hell is up with that?

Friday

Well it's Friday!  Menopausal minion is on vacation for the next week starting today.  Boo, that means I have to work later then usual.  Double boo.  We are getting new carpet in the building.  Everything seems to be running fairly smooth.  My boss lady has decided to work half days to be here at night when the carpet gets installed in sections.  It seemed to have started off fairly well, but as of last night I guess it's taking it's toll.  Lets just say I was wondering where the wine dirty wine glass was coming from.  But seeing as how our computer lady is also on vacation and the new IT people are really a waste of time.  I told one of the attorneys that this guy needs to be fired and go back to our old IT people.  Along with the carpet and the computer bullshit, she has a lot on her plate.  And this is suppose to go on for another week.  I wonder how long till she breaks?

Anyways in lighter news.  The girl is officially 11 today.  I made her dad take her this weekend in hopes he would give her a party, but that didn't happen.  His cheap ass family gave his brother a birthday party on Tuesday and just happened to include her as well.  That was nice of them.  So she got one present from her aunt, her grandpa gave her ten bucks and her great grandpa spotted her a five.  Gee that was big of them to even give her that.  So her dad is planning on taking her to the mall so she can spend her $15.00.  If I were him, unless he is planning on pitching in, which I seriously doubt, I wouldn't even wast my gas to drive to the mall.  Just take her to walmart, she will at least get your employee discount on the crap she buys.   So once again he's cheaping out on her.

Last weekend after the kids party I threw for them, which went well.  The girl got a wii game called just dance.  After everyone left she, her friend who stayed the night, and me, played this game for like 3 hours.  It was so much fun, I enjoyed kicking their asses.  And the girl is finally getting some rhythm.  Sunday we took them to Toys R Us to spend their money (which was way more then $15.00, by the way)  After that fresh hell we had a nice lunch at the roadhouse, and went miniature golfing.  We had a really nice day.  My son had never been, and on his first hole got a hole in one.  He decided her really liked it after that.  I wish all weekends could be like that, fight free, everyone behaving.

Tomorrow we are heading up to apple hill.  We went last year and had a lot of fun getting pies and picking apples.  I hope I can get that peach dumpling I got last year, it was fresh out of the deep fryer and freaking AWESOME. 

Well here's to hoping for a quiet day, but I'm not counting on it.

Wine Tasting!

This is my friends uncles Winery in Healdsberg, CA.

Yummy wine fermenting in the barrels.

View of the vineyard, yes I turned it sepia to give it that dreamy look, but that is really the view.

More vineyard shots.

Cool empty bottle rack at one of the tasting places.

Me stomping grapes to help support breast cancer. 

Me again!  Sorry the picture is a little pixelated.

Just a cool sunset shot on the ride home!

OK now that the pictures are out of the way, I had so much fun.  Lots of wine, beautiful weather, and supporting a good cause.  Oh and some time away from the family which is always nice.

So this week is the kids birthdays.  Well last Saturday was the boys, he's a whopping 8 years old, and next Friday is the girls who is turning 11.  So we are having the party this weekend in the middle.  Poor kids always get screwed having their party's together because they are a week apart.  Oh well.  On the actual day of their birthdays we have just us cake and presents, so they get their own special day.

So work update is, we have a new leader in the retard race here at the firm.  I am really not sure how this lady even functions days to day being this stupid, let alone getting by being a secretary?  Yesterday during our morning meeting, Me and 3 other co-workers who come in and bull shit until it's time to start.  Who desperately try and avoid retard from joining in, but one of us, who shall remain nameless engaged her in conversation.  The whole time with me trying to send psychic messages of don't talk to her and she will go away to the others.  Which obviously didn't work.  So this bitch starts rambling on about how she hates her room mates cats, and somehow it turned into her saying "I don't wash the cats dishes with my human dishes, because I don't want to get strep throat"  OK, WTF?  Is it just me or is this bitch NOT crazy?  Then she starts in on how her room mates cat reminds her of one of the attorneys that work here because the cat has blond hair and blue eyes.  This.......sparked a whole new thing, which I will get to in a minute.  So still reeling from the shock of the word vomit that just oozed out of her mouth, the mentioned attorney walks in at that exact moment all of out jaws are on the floor trying to not laugh hysterically until she left.  Well that didn't work because we just couldn't contain the laughter, especially after I wrote it in my facebook status and passed it along to the others.  Anyways this sparked the mission of giving the said attorney a new name with the word cat in it, since ya know, he looked like one.  So after much debate, going back and fourth, and one of my personal favorites being "pussy"  because in reality, that's what he is, the final verdict came down to "Hello Kitty"  the only reason was because it came with funny pictures as the emails were going around about this.  Yes the stupid things that are spawned to keep us entertained at work.

Now on to why I'm fucking PISSED OFF!  (this post has taken me most of the day to write so it's been like 4 hours since I started this)  It is pay day.  So I decide, ya know I'm going to go get my self some lunch today!  I go to the local BBQ place and get a potato topped with pulled pork, BBQ sauce, nacho cheese, and green onions......HOLY FUCKING SMOKES, it was so good.  While at home enjoying my meal in peace, playing on my computer, my grandma calls.  UGH!  Keep in mind I have reamed my exes ass a few days ago about not paying me my child support which I had to borrow from my mom and told him he has to pay her back now in an effort to make him feel guilty enough to not do it again.  But I can see that's not going to work.  Oh and also now that my weekends are no longer girl free, because he's working weekends now, he takes her on Tuesdays & Thursdays.  OK last night he says can I start taking her on Wednesdays too?  OK No biggie, you deal with the homework during the week.  Enter Grandma (mine, her great), who watches her on Monday, Wed. & Fridays.  Grandma now thinks I'm taking her away from her and that he's plotting to get her over to his side "the dark side"  DUDE, what about me?  You are are so worried your not getting enough time with her but you sure don't give a flying fuck if it takes away from my time.  Which is not that big of a deal considering shes a real pain in the ass anyways.  So instead of grandma watching her all her life out of the goodness of her heart it now has stipulations attached to it.  So I yelled at her, made her cry, and I'm sure I will be paying for it tomorrow at the birthday party.  I am so FUCKING DONE!  And if my husband calls me one more time to tell me his phone is fucked up because I updated it last night I am going to fucking go off the deep end!  So HAPPY FUCKING FRIDAY, I hope you enjoyed the pictures!