Meltdown

Yesterday, was not a good day to say the least.  The girl and I had it out right before school.  It actually got me to the point where I was so mad, and so frustrated I actually called a fucking therapist, because I was literally freaking the fuck out.  Unfortunately for me, they couldn't get me in for two weeks.  But I am still gonna go cause I need to figure out a way to deal with her.  I don't want to hate her, but I can say I did yesterday.  My hubby was a trooper last night though, shockingly enough, he actually sat and listen to me blubbering about what a horrible mom I felt like I was for being so mad at her and being such a mess.  And he fed me wine which helped a lot.  Usually he just says, I don't want to hear it, Ive had a bad day, but he was very hhmmm, compassionate last night.  Wonder what got into him?  Maybe he saw how I was feeling and knew it wasn't the typical shit.

So for some reason it was super calm last night after my meltdown, everyone was super calm, getting along, quiet.  And this morning was equally as nice.  I feel so much better today.

The snow is back :(  And I have to go to Reno today (during work hours yay) to play with the new xerox machine were getting for the office.  And I get to go to lunch to boot.  It's the little things that make me happy!